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Living Life to the Fullest

I am glad I listened to my gut instinct and never went to your place. Even though I knew you would leave anyways.  It hurt so much because I had so much Love ,and Trust and Loyalty where you were concerned.  My gut warned me about you and I just ignored it. It's because I thought we were getting closer, and I decided I was gonna go over . Then suddenly something came up and we didn't talk . When you came back I was going to ask could I go over and surprise you. Well the joke was on me this time. I've never felt so much hurt and betrayal ever . I had finally got the courage to want to go over , then my daughter got in a car accident and her car was inoperable.  Not only this days ahead my subconscious warned me again with a dream of you and a lady. In the dream you were kissing her. But I brushed it off and ignored it.  This time my instincts were right on and I didn't pay attention to them. Well that is a good lesson learned never to ignore what I am feeling.  Now it's gonna be hard to trust any men. I'm gonna be more careful. I just know good friends don't do that to each other. They talk and communicate face to face. Only a coward takes that way out. You should of been a man and talked to me face to face. A true friend would not do this to another. So in the future I'm going to be more careful who I allow to get close to me and in my house. It took alot for me to be able to trust after the second time you did the same thing.  I also feel you have a pattern and you need to seek counseling.  I am thankful that I am not looking back . I am also glad that I will never speak to you ever again.  A man of God does not teat a woman like that.  I know Karma Will find you when you least expect it.  I am thankful I Love God and he will get me through this .

I am Me I know I am a strong person

I Live with Thyroid disease , some days are good some days are not so good.  At times it can be debilitating to say the least. I often wish that I didn't have to go through this every day but I know it makes me stronger. I am thankful to God that I wake up each morning.  Life is good  I am concentrating on me. To be a better person and to forgive and forget. I am giving my life to God to protect me and my family.  Life is hard already but dealing with thyroid issues sometimes can make life unbearable . I keep pushing myself each day.  Just some days suffering with this is hard. If you only knew what it was like to deal with this on a daily basis.  I am learning to cope with this doing alot of research.  I am eating healthy and exercises in the comfort of my home. This diseases you can't see it, but it's there . I might look fine on the outside but on the inside constant turmoil. So for those who think it's all in a person's head it's not. It's really and I have to live with hypothyroidism every day of my life. I take each day one day at a time. I will strive to keep going no matter what. I am a strong person,  and I also know what does not kill me will make me stronger.  I am thankful for my life I understand that times change , people change, and each day brings a new chapter in my life. I know that I do not go out and hurt people.  I know that is not cool for someone to do you wrong.   I am happy enjoying life with my family in which I am very Thankful for.  I do not take life for granted I also know I choose God because he will love me and never leave me. He will never forsake me. He will comfort me and help me get through this each day.  I pray  that I have good health and happiness in each day I  live from this day forward.  Thank you Lord  for comforting me during this time.  You are the comfort in which I was longing for.  I have had a difficult life along the way but I know I am strong  and will continue to be. I also will keep out those who hurt me and never look back . I say this because of past mistakes I have made.  I will live on and prosper no matter what.  I have my writing that also helps me cope with this disease,  and day to day life.  I hold no grudges and I move forward with a positive outlook on the rest of my life.  I know I will meet my True Love up in Heaven cause he is waiting for me. I know each day will get easier.  Thyroid disease is so misunderstood,  I know if other people would know more they could understand what you are going through each day.

A Relationship that was never a relationship

This happened to me after I was going through a difficult time  in my life. I decided to look up someone and reconnect with them.  We seemed to hit it off we had good chemistry,  but he did not disclose alot of issues he had.  It was an interesting  way to start off, but I was forgiving.  I understood  his situation and we continued to talk to each other. But neither one of us ever disclose that it was a relationship.  This went on for several years . Then I noticed how he had a pattern of how he treated women. With my dismay I still tried to understand his situation.  The reason why I did this is because I Truly cared for him . By this time I was already falling in love with him regardless of his issues and his excessive pot smoking,  and his continuing drama that was always surrounded him.  I often told myself he was a good man, but in reality he wasn't.  He not only  hurt me once, twice , and a third time. He came back to me both those other times telling me how much he loved me.  Well he is out of luck this time  Three Strikes your out. I will not allow you to do this to me again. I truly loved and cared for him. I don't tell you that just because.  I meant it from the depths of my heart and I truly meant every word I uttered to you.  I told you things about my self I would of never of told you. I thought you understood what I've been through.  The second time you decided you didn't want to be with me rocked my world in a not very good way. I had a nervous breakdown and I never told you that happened to me .  I also never told you that that was part of the reasons why this last time we were together I didn't go to your house.  I completely didn't trust you because  I had a gut feeling you were going to do exactly what you did again.  I'm very saddened that this has happened against my better judgment.  I gave you unconditional Love , loyalty and I was just beginning to totally trust you , and low and behold you did it again.   I thought you understood my health issues.  When you truly love someone you love them regardless of what they are going through.  I thought you understood my  health issues,  I always understood when you had something or an issue.  Because I deeply cared for you and that was not a lie.  I really wasn't sure what was going on with you but I understood.  My Love was always Genuine  my intentions were only to make you happy.  Then I was waiting for you to get back from a sudden trip . I was ready to go spend time with you and be with you. I was faithful to you  and I Loved you with all my heart and soul. Then I was talking to my daughter about this and she tells me Mom . He has  a pattern he seems to have a big story right before something is going to happen between us.  For sure it was happening all over again.  I couldn't believe it. I invested a lot in this so called relationship,  that was or wasn't.  I was so confused and hurt, devastated beyond belief.  I'm  thinking how can a man consciously do this to a woman.  He was supposed to be in love with you.  I don't understand how you can turn off your feelings for someone just like that, that is not something I can do. The fact that you couldn't man up and talk to me on the phone  leads me to believe that you will continue this with someone else. If you had any respect for me you would of came and saw me in person.  You chose to be a coward  and not even be truthfully honest  and you gave me three different reasons why . None of which I believe  because I know you have lied in the past and you will continue to lie. It saddens me that I trusted you with my heart and you broke it three times. I'm not sure how you live with yourself or how you can sleep at night.  In life it is not easy but a man should deal with relationships the right way not run away.  There were alot of other stuff going on also, you wasn't willing to let your family know about me.  So I wasn't sure how serious you were but you never seemed to let them know about us. I was just your friends were they were concerned.  If you are a man this is appalling behavior.  I wanted all of you regardless of how your life was. That is what a good woman does for a man. I never used you my feelings were always 100 % percent real and never fake. A real man would treat his woman like a queen, and would just come over just because I also knew since you weren't doing that this really wasn't a relationship  unless it was on your terms . Making excuses about  certain things,  and using Respect when in reality you never had one ounce of Respect for me at all. That was just using words for your own benefit that had no meaning.  I'm glad you finally showed your true colors.  Even though two times before I gave you the benefit of doubt and believed you because I Truly Loved you and cared for you with every fiber of my soul.  I have prayed to God to help me have some way to forgive you. 

When I Lost you in 2008 My whole world changed I miss you so much

When I Lost you My whole world changed. There were so many things I needed to tell you.  You made me laugh,  you made me cry. Most of the time we were happy and we loved each other.  I know that you were my soul mate and nobody can ever take your place. No one will ever measure up . I know that in my heart and soul and you were taken way to early.  I never loved anyone like you and you were one of a kind. So I hope you are saving me a seat in Heaven cause I want to be in your arms again.  I Love Only you DeWayne Always  not a day goes by that you are on our minds and in our thoughts.  I wish  I could  of told you I Love you  just one more time.  I know that our Love was one of kind and you Loved me Unconditionally.  I wish you weren't taken from us so soon . You would be proud of the kids we raised they turned out good.  When I'm feeling sad I can always hear your laughter which makes me smile. I know I can't turn back time  but  I wish you were here.  We had almost 20 years , it was great in the beginning and we got through it , the last part got rocky , but you was willing to go the distance no matter what and sacrificed also. I Love You for that,  I just miss you my heart aches.  I know I have to be strong,  but sometimes it is so difficult.  Especially when you have lost your best friend \ and you're life partner  cause we said till death do us part  I still Love you so very much.  Especially for all the life's lessons we learned along the way.  If I knew it was going to end up this way  today. I was looking forward to us getting old together.  Guess what you're right I'm never alone , the kids look after me all the time. We raised some good children You would be so proud of them and their choices.  It just gets so Lonely here. But  I know  you are here in spirit with us.  I hope you are keeping my family company up there in Heaven cause we sure miss you alot.  I Love You  See you in Heaven  R.I.P  My Love My One and Only True Love 

A Life interrupted

Sometimes in life you need to sit back and reevaluate your life . Right along with  the people you thought were you're friends. It saddens me cause here I am all alone. I am trying real hard to let this pain leave me. But it is still here. When you love someone so much but they don't love you it is difficult.  I just know that I am not going to let this happen to me again ever. I will wait to meet  my best friend,  my husband again in Heaven he is the only one who ever Loved me. Save me a seat next to you.  Up there in Heaven.  I guess life's lessons are to help you grow.  So I will take this as a clue to never go back with someone you was once with because it really is like putting a piece of shit back in your ass. Stay with what you know let God Love you and be happy .