This happened to me after I was going through a difficult time in my life. I decided to look up someone and reconnect with them. We seemed to hit it off we had good chemistry, but he did not disclose alot of issues he had. It was an interesting way to start off, but I was forgiving. I understood his situation and we continued to talk to each other. But neither one of us ever disclose that it was a relationship. This went on for several years . Then I noticed how he had a pattern of how he treated women. With my dismay I still tried to understand his situation. The reason why I did this is because I Truly cared for him . By this time I was already falling in love with him regardless of his issues and his excessive pot smoking, and his continuing drama that was always surrounded him. I often told myself he was a good man, but in reality he wasn't. He not only hurt me once, twice , and a third time. He came back to me both those other times telling me how much he loved me. Well he is out of luck this time Three Strikes your out. I will not allow you to do this to me again. I truly loved and cared for him. I don't tell you that just because. I meant it from the depths of my heart and I truly meant every word I uttered to you. I told you things about my self I would of never of told you. I thought you understood what I've been through. The second time you decided you didn't want to be with me rocked my world in a not very good way. I had a nervous breakdown and I never told you that happened to me . I also never told you that that was part of the reasons why this last time we were together I didn't go to your house. I completely didn't trust you because I had a gut feeling you were going to do exactly what you did again. I'm very saddened that this has happened against my better judgment. I gave you unconditional Love , loyalty and I was just beginning to totally trust you , and low and behold you did it again. I thought you understood my health issues. When you truly love someone you love them regardless of what they are going through. I thought you understood my health issues, I always understood when you had something or an issue. Because I deeply cared for you and that was not a lie. I really wasn't sure what was going on with you but I understood. My Love was always Genuine my intentions were only to make you happy. Then I was waiting for you to get back from a sudden trip . I was ready to go spend time with you and be with you. I was faithful to you and I Loved you with all my heart and soul. Then I was talking to my daughter about this and she tells me Mom . He has a pattern he seems to have a big story right before something is going to happen between us. For sure it was happening all over again. I couldn't believe it. I invested a lot in this so called relationship, that was or wasn't. I was so confused and hurt, devastated beyond belief. I'm thinking how can a man consciously do this to a woman. He was supposed to be in love with you. I don't understand how you can turn off your feelings for someone just like that, that is not something I can do. The fact that you couldn't man up and talk to me on the phone leads me to believe that you will continue this with someone else. If you had any respect for me you would of came and saw me in person. You chose to be a coward and not even be truthfully honest and you gave me three different reasons why . None of which I believe because I know you have lied in the past and you will continue to lie. It saddens me that I trusted you with my heart and you broke it three times. I'm not sure how you live with yourself or how you can sleep at night. In life it is not easy but a man should deal with relationships the right way not run away. There were alot of other stuff going on also, you wasn't willing to let your family know about me. So I wasn't sure how serious you were but you never seemed to let them know about us. I was just your friends were they were concerned. If you are a man this is appalling behavior. I wanted all of you regardless of how your life was. That is what a good woman does for a man. I never used you my feelings were always 100 % percent real and never fake. A real man would treat his woman like a queen, and would just come over just because I also knew since you weren't doing that this really wasn't a relationship unless it was on your terms . Making excuses about certain things, and using Respect when in reality you never had one ounce of Respect for me at all. That was just using words for your own benefit that had no meaning. I'm glad you finally showed your true colors. Even though two times before I gave you the benefit of doubt and believed you because I Truly Loved you and cared for you with every fiber of my soul. I have prayed to God to help me have some way to forgive you.
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