I am glad I listened to my gut instinct and never went to your place. Even though I knew you would leave anyways. It hurt so much because I had so much Love ,and Trust and Loyalty where you were concerned. My gut warned me about you and I just ignored it. It's because I thought we were getting closer, and I decided I was gonna go over . Then suddenly something came up and we didn't talk . When you came back I was going to ask could I go over and surprise you. Well the joke was on me this time. I've never felt so much hurt and betrayal ever . I had finally got the courage to want to go over , then my daughter got in a car accident and her car was inoperable. Not only this days ahead my subconscious warned me again with a dream of you and a lady. In the dream you were kissing her. But I brushed it off and ignored it. This time my instincts were right on and I didn't pay attention to them. Well that is a good lesson learned never to ignore what I am feeling. Now it's gonna be hard to trust any men. I'm gonna be more careful. I just know good friends don't do that to each other. They talk and communicate face to face. Only a coward takes that way out. You should of been a man and talked to me face to face. A true friend would not do this to another. So in the future I'm going to be more careful who I allow to get close to me and in my house. It took alot for me to be able to trust after the second time you did the same thing. I also feel you have a pattern and you need to seek counseling. I am thankful that I am not looking back . I am also glad that I will never speak to you ever again. A man of God does not teat a woman like that. I know Karma Will find you when you least expect it. I am thankful I Love God and he will get me through this .
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